Story of my life
"You don’t connect the dots looking forward.
You connect the dots looking back."
Steve Jobs, you nailed that one!
Today, I live a life that not only inspires me, but a life in which my beliefs and aspirations are at its core. I am talking about true happiness. The kind of happiness that comes from deep within and shines from the heart.
This life was not handed to me on a plate, I built it brick by brick with hard work, commitment and determination. This was by no means an easy task, but undoubtedly worth doing for my happiness today. It was A LOT of hard work, inner work, determination and soul searching to get me to where I am today.
With hindsight, I can say that the fulfilment I feel in my life today did not appear overnight, it happened gradually, every moment and experience was a building block, bringing me ever closer to a sense of true happiness. Life is magically orchestrated and weaved moment by moment.
Every single experience in our lives is unique and is leading us to where we are supposed to be.
For most of my life, I was clueless as to who I was and what I wanted to achieve.
Does that ring a bell my love?
I felt I was constantly searching for a true sense of meaning and purpose. I had this deep yearning that I couldn’t understand. For too long, I considered myself an unhappy person. I just thought that’s who I was and that was final.
In 2010, I began my career in the corporate world. Beside myself with excitement to start working at the Planning department, I was sure I had hit jackpot and that working in the corporate sector was my true calling.
However with time, feelings of doubt and unhappiness began to appear. I was completely frustrated and disheartened by the reality of working in such a fast paced and constantly demanding environment. Unaware of my true passions and interests at the time, for several years I repressed any burning desire to make a change
I felt lost and unsure. I just
did not know what to do.
Having worked and studied full time for two years, I had not had the time to look after myself and engage with my gut feelings on what would truly make me happy. In addition to that, I was going through some serious problems within my family, a situation which would negatively affect me for many years. Outside of these difficulties, my own personal relationships left me constantly disappointed and heartbroken. It felt as though my life was a continuous storm that would never lead to a sense of tranquility.
There is this beautiful movement of life that naturally flows whether we want it or not. Life is just like Nature. It organically finds its way back to balance and harmony.
Meanwhile, I was attending buddhist meetings which made me feel safe and loved. That’s when my journey with spiritualization began. Through this practice I regained my strength and took the courage to seek for help. In therapy I could understand and heal my wounds one by one. It was a long, rocky and painful process. But at the same time, I was fascinated by what was being uncovered. I was hopeful and recovering my inner strength.
Patiently, I did my homework. Lesson by lesson. Soul searching. Feeling my way through my issues. I was taking my first steps towards understanding my emotions, unraveling who I truly was and connecting to my inner source of happiness and power.
And then Yoga happened. Phew!
It was literally love at first sight. I remember feeling my body at ease for the first time in ages. My mind was calmer and quieter like it had never been before. I felt at peace. I attended the classes once a week, NO MATTER WHAT.
That’s when I learned that making my wellbeing a number one priority, pays off.
Slowly my practice became a big part of my life and beautiful changes started to unfold from within. I was taking care of myself, healing from the inside out. Back then, I did not think of becoming a Yoga teacher.
There I was. Still facing the same problems but in a different way. I felt more in tune with myself and consequently I could make better choices.
When I was about to graduate I knew I needed a change. I quit the job that made me so unhappy and continued on my search for something that would make my heart sing. I did more courses than I can count trying to find what would speak to my soul.
But before I found who I was and what I wanted, I had some more homework to do.
In 2014 I left everything behind and chased my dream to live a life that would be entirely my own. So I moved to the most fascinating city I know: London.
I owe so much to this place. In this city, I learned that life can be magical and beautiful. I made incredible connections that have been so important in my journey. When I moved here, I said to my life: I am opened to live an amazing experience!
Amazing doesn’t even begin to describe it. Certainly what has made my life in London truly special were the people I have connected to. Like-minded people. Friends that are there for you to lift you up and help bring out the best of you.
When you find yourself and own who you are, you will naturally attract the right people for you.
My life in London has taught me is that I can create the life I want to live. All we have to do is set the intention for that to happen, strive to work on ourselves and live in accordance to our dreams. This is no mean feat, but I am so proud of my journey and who I have become as a result.
Although I eventually returned to full time work in the corporate world, this time felt different. My full time job was funding my passion and enabled me to complete my 200h qualification with YogaLondon. Practicing on a daily basis really allowed me to make a positive and lasting change in my wellbeing.
Having a life I loved out of work assisted me in dealing with a job I did not like.
It provided me with tools to cope with stress and anxiety. I was using what I was learning in Yoga and in my personal life, to create a better version of myself at work.
Suddenly my life became so interesting to me. I loved every single bit of it and was proud of the person I was becoming.
However, my new found happiness came crashing down when I became involved in yet another unfulfilling relationship. It left me completely crushed but not without a desire to heal and delve deep within my soul to find peace once more.
I did a lot of research on self-love, healing a broken heart, love and kindness and self-care. I practiced what I was learning. I read dozens of books, watched innumerable lectures and talks, practiced yoga non-stop to peel back the layers and reveal myself in my sincerest form.
I soon came to realize that I was lacking SELF-LOVE.
In order to heal I had to go deeper. I had to learn to love myself unconditionally, to the extent that there would be no room for any niggles of self doubt. So I learned a very important lesson:
You can’t love your life and others unless you love yourself first.
My healing came from engaging in my life wholeheartedly. I started teaching Yoga more and more, even though I was so scared of putting myself out there. I signed up for an online Coaching Course that gave me the first insight of what I really wanted to do.
I wanted to help people to live a happier and more purposeful life.
In 2017 I came across my ever inspiring Life Coach Ariadne Kapsali and started a beautiful 3 month coaching journey where I would explore deep within my soul who I was and what I wanted to be, letting go of all the barriers holding me back and taking charge of my life. It was magical! Hard I will tell you, but magical! That was when I developed a steady Meditation practice that helped me change my thinking patterns and cross the bridge from self-doubt to worthiness and belonging.
For the first time in my life I experienced pure bliss and deep connection to myself like I had never felt before.
At this point I knew it already. I knew what my purpose was. I knew what made me happy. All I had to do was to be brave enough to embrace it and live it to the fullest. That was when my Yoga teacher Paula Andreewitch recommended me the book that would literally change my life, The Great Work of Your Life by Stephen Cope. This book beautifully describes how each and every one of us has a unique vocation that is deeply personal and only ours to own. One quote in particular, opened my eyes. It says:
"If you bring forth what is within you, what you bring forth will save you. If you don't bring forth what is within you, what you do not bring forth will destroy you".
At the end of 2017 I joined Beautiful You Coaching Academy and in 2018 I received a diploma in life coaching. I saw in life coaching the perfect opportunity of using my own life experience to help others to become as happy as or even happier than what I have become.
Now, I am a heart centered Happiness and Purpose Life Coach, yoga teacher and meditation guide focused on guiding women like you who work in the corporate world through a beautiful journey towards creating a more balanced, joyful and inspired life that is yours to own.
Find out more about working with me here! Let’s make some magic!